listen to my prayers oh God oh Japan

Dear Dolce,

yours too please TT_TT

❀ ✿ ❁

i cant tell u how bad i want to go to Japan.
im lucky enough to get blessings from my parents to go study oversea.
to my most top favourite dream country NIPPON!!~


so last year's July i graduated my diploma.
in culinary arts -_-
...
for people who really REALLY knows me, im a terrible cook!
the worst a human or plants can be xD
even my dad is worried when i told him i wanted to study dat.
who wouldn't? -__-
note that i am scared and super terrified over oil.
i would hide behind a door/wall and throw chicken atleast 2meters away frm the pan and ran away.
i covered my whole body before cooking.
even till now, i wrap my body with a big towel to the tip of my finger and hold the spatula using the towel...holding the tip of the spatula all the time, imagine how tiring that can be =_=
and i stand as far as i can from the pan.
atleast better than before. i once have a uniform for cooking. no. not chef's uniform.
wear clothes that covers my whole body + gloves + mechanic glasses + hat + towel to wrap my neck. and all of those hafta be thick enough so when the oil splashed o smtg, i wont feel it.


...ookay.
so what's got in to me? taking diploma on that particular thing?
its not 'main masak-masak'. its serious job. career. future. baby's food.


guess i never really grow up -__-
all i was thinking was "im going to eat desserts everyday. oh. how joy." ...orz....
all i ever wanted was to eat desserts.
im a sugar monster -_-
and since i've started class, im only good in pastry class.
thats my only time to shine xDD
i really REALLY enjoyed every single moment of it, even almost 90% of my classmates hate that class the most xD
i dont even mind doing all the jobs even if its a groupwork. i lovelovelove it to da max!!!


..but when it comes to kitchen class...TT___TT...im the worst.
i still throw chickens and run orz
people must think im wasting money for fear willingly. wtf TT_TT
its like paying for haunted house when u know u got heart disease.


anyhow blax8...i get to finish it :3
a very BIG THANKS to my awesome peeps SARAH, PUPUT, AFIQ & JARREL for always hanging out with me throughout the years till the very end.

[picture taken by sarah's sister, FARAH ALIAH, sorry i took it and edit TT_TT..but u have to forgive me since im making sarah famous and at least giving credit muahahahaaa xD]

well even si afiq and jarrel join lambat haha. and to sarah n puput who always help me in my study. puput for being my kitchen partner, sorry i screwed our food for countless times TT_TT i just cant help ruining it. im just too awesome at killing good food orz
without u guys, i would be playing around not caring about results etc n.n
when the result came out, jarrel got no.2!!! how awesome is that?! puput got in top 5 from all the students in our batch. there's like 70+ ke 80+ ke 90+ tah haha. sarah got no.6. awesome.
....i got 27 hahahaa....
well too bad afiq got 28!!!! muahahahahhaaaa xDDDD
who's awesome now?
yup. a girl who covers herself when cooking and runaway from a dead chicken!! xD
im just happy we all got good results in the end after 2 years of torture and neverending assignments.


who wouldn't die?
diploma in 2 years. helo TT_TT
everything is so packed and hell-ish.


OK SO!!!


after i graduated. i thought of being a pastry chef. i got a full plans n dreams ahead of me. i know where im going.
who would have thought. my old dreams came chasing back.
i realized this old old childish dreams.
where did i left this dreams?
...*mesmerized*
..



ok wtf just get on with it already =__="



i. love to draw.
i love manga, anime, japans culture, the language, animation. n some more awesome craps people think of =u=
not to brag, but i dont find my drawing is all that bad.
im proud of it! >D
i dont care a shit how others are better than me, i LOVE how i draw, the awkwardness n all.
its my style.
its me.
n im comfortable with it :3


i thought of...why not i make it a dream come true, no?


so i talked to my sister about it.
n she talked to my dad about it =.=


yada yada yada....


he let me study in art field
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BLISS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


cuz he never really seems to be comfortable with me doing this art thingy since im a kid xD
i've been drawing since my mom learns how to read.
i started drawing mangas since im 8.
got serious at 13.
super serious at 16.
and left it after SPM...??


wtf happened scumbag brain??? \OAO/""


at first i thought of studying animation in Aussie.
Curtin Uni at Perth.
i thought why not. its not so expensive living there compare to sydney aite?
so i sit for IELTS exam.
i passed.
..
but now the test result is wasted xD
its not free -__- cost somewhere around rm500 =_="
sorry and thanks daddy~~~ TTATT/
and what craps i said about how expensive living cost in sydney were?
Japan is liek one of the toughest country to live in in terms of living cost $$$
one of the most expensive!
in tokyo summore!!!
i really talked craps aint it? xDDDDDDD
i considered a lot on Aussie.
but Japan.... aint an ant dare to walk in front of my running track =.=
wtf. more craps.
k continue~



but on. one. very. confusing. fine. day.

my dad came out from his room, brought me this stack of papers n asked me to browse through it.
he printed every pages of a university in japan's website!!!!!
its a manga/anime/seiyuu/j-pop kinda thing's university okayyyy???
and my dad search it for me TT___TT *touched
i. was. flabbergasted!!!!
i left all about aussie behind me..animation...etc at once...and get online to check this uni!


all the fuss, and for the first time in my life, such will to get something!!!!!


and today...it almost ends n__n


its such a hardwork to convince my dad.
its my FIRST time ever standing up for myself in an arguement/discussion.
usually i just give up and just go with the flow or just listen to my parents cuz i believe they know whats best for me.
so when i finally get his blessings...i now understands that he never forbid me from studying/doing what i like.
he wants to see my will getting there. how i'll fight for my right. how strong and badly i want it. and actually work for it :'D shucks dad...*imaginary gentle-shoulder-punch dad*


fine. THANKS KAK JULIE for convincing babah~ xDDD
i'll make it up to u someday.
or buy u takoyaki frm japan -__- yums.


this 27th Feb..or 28...or anytime soon after the 27th..=.=....im going to find out whether i get to go to japan or not weeee~ xD
im not being over-confident....but im just being super positive xD
ok its the same.
watever.
i know im going to get it! i worked hard for it! >A</
if i dont get it, then i'll just crack macadamia with my forehead for 5 nights in a row.
...that would be depressing.
but time will heal, i'll get over it in no time.


DEAR NIPPON CHAWN!!!!

please listen to my prayers a.k.a ranting
..=.=
im sure u want to add one more awesome girl to ur awesome country right? D':
i can stalk bishie like a ninja.
i can kiss and lick a cat more than a dog would.
i love hachiko like.....how i love the movie D<
i can shout "BoombadoomboomBoombadoomboomhe got that super bassBoombadoomboomBoombadoomboomyeah that's that super bass!!!" at the centre of tokyo and not feel embarrased of doing so.
i would be honoured if u can teach me how to do all of the above @_@"


conclusion is.
please get me to japan.
i pro pro pro prooomise i'll study hard :3


i would love to enjoy ur breathtaking scenery.
ur to-die-for four season.
ur better-shop-or-just-die harajuku street.
ur just-go-die-cuz-its-ridiculously-expensive akihabara techs xD


i just wanna get there and enjoy every single moment of it :3


oh oh one more prayers for u my nippon nyan.
pls let me bring my family too one day :3
i hope i can have them there with me to enjoy ur treasures.
in the prayers resume, i include RILL OxO
..please? OxO


haha.


cant believe you actually read it till the end with just one picture.
i know i wouldn't xD


o-ya-su-mi ♥