comparison

dear dolce,

i love you for loving me for who i am n never judge (u cant tell me anyway muahahahaa xD) *hugs

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do you people like being compare to other people? or other things?
well i dont know. BUT I DONT!!!

some people dont care.
1. cuz for them, its not who i am, so whut.
2. they're hurt but try to act like all cool and said like point above.

aaaaanyway. i care!

i am someone who likes being weird and different. i dont like being compared for goodness sake.

it hurts and i feel shitty. i dont care if i look like someone you know or whoever in terms of style etc, BIATCH PLEASE, i dont follow any of ur freaking friends.
if i feel like it, i buy.

if i feel like it, i wear.

if i feel like it, i freaking do it myself.
if i feel like following em, i'd excitedly ask/tell em about it!


i dont buy sayings like "u should be proud that they compare u to her/him/that".
pls.
i'd be proud if i can do it without following people.

usually people who compared me to others have the intention to hurt me on purpose. i can sense that dummy. who is stupid enough to compare their own friends with other people and think dat it wont hurt? and u think ur awesome and original. if ur so original, go pick some leaves and stick em on ur @#$%& and walk around town like a boss.
then u wait till i feel heartbroken, feel satisfied, felt good aint it?
swallow it. do nothing good on you.
congrats u made me feel bad.
now go praised urself infront of the mirror. perasan perfect =A= i can compare u too but i wouldn't cuz i know it will hurt u. its like im the only one who acts like a friend here. psshhh...

or. ur jealous in a way, felt threatened, try to make me feel down, feel good about urself. pshh pls.
or. u feel insecure. u are following someone's style. afraid ppl'll judge or watever, now go n attack people.
or. i dunno, trying so hard to show that u are somewhat into the style im in too, and put into evrybody's mind that i followed u?
omg girl, i can smell ur stinky behaviour frm thousands miles away!!! >A</
*flip tables*



sometimes, not just comparing me to a person. an animal. gosh people. u gone blind? do some eye surgery.
someone compare me to a pig.
she thinks its funny. no. i can sense that she's trying to hurt me.
why not u compare urself to a pig, see how cute u look/act.
i dont mind cats. i love cats to bits.
pigs? -__-


gee.






...oh btw. HAPPY BIRTHDAY RILL!!! xD
POTATO! ♡

deep ke? tak pon! hahahahaha xD

PEOPLE SHOULD STOP COMPARING LIFE TO OTHERS AND JUST LIVE THEIR OWN LIFE AWESOMELY

this goes to u too shi xD

visa | fly | hangout | Aaron guy

Dear Dolce,

I'll be flying off soon ❤

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weeeee~ so i went to make/do my visa today at the japan embassy 8D
im so happy.
cant wait to fly >_<

...and my sister just told me about the earthquake news recently happening in Tokyo =x=
dammit Nippon!
sorry la i upset u. but u lost the bet, just suck it man >A</
gee...im sorry Q_Q
please be gentle~



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so finally..i didn't even get the chance to spend time with my friends :(
there's not enough time..and money...

at first i got money. and time.
so i planned to go out with most of them.
then i spent 90% of the money on shopping. in just 2 days, before meeting my friends TT_TT
omg money, why do u have to leave so soon orz...

and then i got money again.
but no time TT_TT
my schedules are now packed with plans/classes.
when im free, my friends are not free pulak orz...


*sigh*

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So in my class, there's this boy named Aaron (he wont know about this blog aaanyways)
SO.
We never talk to each other, even though we're sitting facing each other ="A"=
but far. now i dont feel so snobby.
i never bother to do so though, cuz i got no topic. and im not that friendly to just approach people D:
then last tuesday's class, the whole class need to do this one activity, that involves everyone to walk around the class and so, we're forced to talk to each other, or else, we wont get the answer to the activity xDD
..no im still not talking to him xD
then i saw something on his table, neatly wrapped in a bubble wrapper.
and then i grabbed it fast, run to him n showed it to his face.
"OMG is this yours??!!!"
he was shocked "uh yeah"
"WARGHHH scandal is my favourite band!!! how, where'd u get this?!"
(ok so, its something like a book with SCANDAL as the cover)
i forgot what he told me, but basically it's some limited edition album, but its big, like a book. i regret not asking him to open it for me to look and drool =3= bummer.

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and then we started talking hahaha. wth. 

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no picture. lol im too lazy today. super tired.
mostly just lazy xD weee~

have a great day :3 ❤

im sorry wahahaa xD

Dear Dolce,

Control my words will ya? xD

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what was i sorry about? -__-
im sorry about my last post orrr those crappy mean post about friends blablablaa~
i was depressedddd >A</
and this is my blog, not Facebook 8D

lol im so annoyed by those people who spill every sad moment, lovey dovey stuffs, fight between couples in public and some more emotional craps that are mostly meant to be private. then post it on Facebook. not in inbox message between two airheads. on status -_- grr... and my homepage was polluted. my eyes bleed -_- gosh emo people, have mercy.

i know its their problem, its their Facebook, who cares right??
but omg -_- its so annoying.
they want it to be public, then when people ask, they wont tell.
what sorcery is this? =x="
such attention whore man...

who wants to know every single details of your life? ="A"=
if you really want people to know about your supertastic problems or life, get a blog or something.
or write a depressing diary, publish it, hope for famous director to filmed it, and go suicide. and then get a sequel movie.


...wtf.
back to tha point.
im sorry. lol.
i wanted to delete them. but no i wont >D
no ones gonna get bothered or annoyed by it right? its not like u have to read it. if u read it, well u chose to xD
its what i want to remember. and i hate writing diaries.
we're not in the 20's anymore. we typed faster than we write.
even the 20's don't write journals on papers.
they carves on stones.
..
wtf mom, im stupid.
point is. blog. yup.


im not gonna agree or deny any of anyone's guesses.
those person in those posts wont know anyway.
i love my friends, but sometimes they can turn into @#$%& too.
so bhai.

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what is this i dont even---

hello.

u used me.

i replied by being too nice.

since forever.

i be your dog.

realized that by now?

i tried to change you for the better.

and you think i hate you and friends don't act like that to each other.

wtf.

u wanted a friend? or a dog?

then you started being sarcastic over everything.

you think ur the victim.

again. wtf.

ur just selfish.

maybe u just didn't realize all of the things u did.

i tried to show/tell u.

and u think i was being sarcastic and attacking u.

u never know how hurtful it is for me to be ur dog before.

cuz ur having too much fun doing it, u think its nothing.

or u still didn't realize it.

and still playing victim.

i dont care how successful u will be in the future.

u can rub it in my face in the future.

i wont give a damn about it.

cuz nothing actually matters.

i should just go find some other friends who want to treat each other with respect

and so you can find other dogs.

im going to Japan. u can just start forget about me.

its going to be easy for u.

since u never wanna care anyway.

kiss ALL the potatoes in JAPAN!!!!!

Dear Dolce!!!!!!

if ur still here, im gonna bring u to Japan no matter what!!!

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So, Japan has heard my prayers. n bought my bribes =_=
now i have to embarrassed myself at tokyo's streets =_____="
*pokes Japan*
u know i was kidding. right? -__-"
OTL...
then u're like "eat ur words now missy!! >DD"
then i'll say: fine, i dun care, im goin so i won? >D *yaoming
japan:







so the big news is..the results are finally out and

I'M GOING TO JAPAN THIS APRIL!!!!!!!!!

how exciting is that???? well for me yea lah xD





a part of me still wanna stay in Malaysia.
but the remaining part, maybe 99.09% WANT TO GO so hell yeahhh!!! hahahhaaaa xDDDD

fine, i did promise i'll study hard and i will :)


yeeee~
mumy asked me to list down things i need to buy before flying-off xD
shopping! ❤


im just so happy thats all :D

concentration level: -90

i went to Selayang Mall just now to pay some bills, have lunch and shop for some clothes.

while i was walking down the stairs...i text.

then, something unthinkable happened.

an angel drop from heaven right infront of me.

..ok no. i fell down the stairs =.=

i sit for a while, stunned. and thought "hey. it doesn't hurt a bit!!"

and i laughed! o__o cuz i find it funny that someone fell down the stairs.

even its me who fell down .___.

people around me..up...down..did the "girl, r u ok?"-face

still laughing, i continue walking down and still texting.

someone did not learn her mistake aye? xD

listen to my prayers oh God oh Japan

Dear Dolce,

yours too please TT_TT

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i cant tell u how bad i want to go to Japan.
im lucky enough to get blessings from my parents to go study oversea.
to my most top favourite dream country NIPPON!!~


so last year's July i graduated my diploma.
in culinary arts -_-
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for people who really REALLY knows me, im a terrible cook!
the worst a human or plants can be xD
even my dad is worried when i told him i wanted to study dat.
who wouldn't? -__-
note that i am scared and super terrified over oil.
i would hide behind a door/wall and throw chicken atleast 2meters away frm the pan and ran away.
i covered my whole body before cooking.
even till now, i wrap my body with a big towel to the tip of my finger and hold the spatula using the towel...holding the tip of the spatula all the time, imagine how tiring that can be =_=
and i stand as far as i can from the pan.
atleast better than before. i once have a uniform for cooking. no. not chef's uniform.
wear clothes that covers my whole body + gloves + mechanic glasses + hat + towel to wrap my neck. and all of those hafta be thick enough so when the oil splashed o smtg, i wont feel it.


...ookay.
so what's got in to me? taking diploma on that particular thing?
its not 'main masak-masak'. its serious job. career. future. baby's food.


guess i never really grow up -__-
all i was thinking was "im going to eat desserts everyday. oh. how joy." ...orz....
all i ever wanted was to eat desserts.
im a sugar monster -_-
and since i've started class, im only good in pastry class.
thats my only time to shine xDD
i really REALLY enjoyed every single moment of it, even almost 90% of my classmates hate that class the most xD
i dont even mind doing all the jobs even if its a groupwork. i lovelovelove it to da max!!!


..but when it comes to kitchen class...TT___TT...im the worst.
i still throw chickens and run orz
people must think im wasting money for fear willingly. wtf TT_TT
its like paying for haunted house when u know u got heart disease.


anyhow blax8...i get to finish it :3
a very BIG THANKS to my awesome peeps SARAH, PUPUT, AFIQ & JARREL for always hanging out with me throughout the years till the very end.

[picture taken by sarah's sister, FARAH ALIAH, sorry i took it and edit TT_TT..but u have to forgive me since im making sarah famous and at least giving credit muahahahaaa xD]

well even si afiq and jarrel join lambat haha. and to sarah n puput who always help me in my study. puput for being my kitchen partner, sorry i screwed our food for countless times TT_TT i just cant help ruining it. im just too awesome at killing good food orz
without u guys, i would be playing around not caring about results etc n.n
when the result came out, jarrel got no.2!!! how awesome is that?! puput got in top 5 from all the students in our batch. there's like 70+ ke 80+ ke 90+ tah haha. sarah got no.6. awesome.
....i got 27 hahahaa....
well too bad afiq got 28!!!! muahahahahhaaaa xDDDD
who's awesome now?
yup. a girl who covers herself when cooking and runaway from a dead chicken!! xD
im just happy we all got good results in the end after 2 years of torture and neverending assignments.


who wouldn't die?
diploma in 2 years. helo TT_TT
everything is so packed and hell-ish.


OK SO!!!


after i graduated. i thought of being a pastry chef. i got a full plans n dreams ahead of me. i know where im going.
who would have thought. my old dreams came chasing back.
i realized this old old childish dreams.
where did i left this dreams?
...*mesmerized*
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ok wtf just get on with it already =__="



i. love to draw.
i love manga, anime, japans culture, the language, animation. n some more awesome craps people think of =u=
not to brag, but i dont find my drawing is all that bad.
im proud of it! >D
i dont care a shit how others are better than me, i LOVE how i draw, the awkwardness n all.
its my style.
its me.
n im comfortable with it :3


i thought of...why not i make it a dream come true, no?


so i talked to my sister about it.
n she talked to my dad about it =.=


yada yada yada....


he let me study in art field
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BLISS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


cuz he never really seems to be comfortable with me doing this art thingy since im a kid xD
i've been drawing since my mom learns how to read.
i started drawing mangas since im 8.
got serious at 13.
super serious at 16.
and left it after SPM...??


wtf happened scumbag brain??? \OAO/""


at first i thought of studying animation in Aussie.
Curtin Uni at Perth.
i thought why not. its not so expensive living there compare to sydney aite?
so i sit for IELTS exam.
i passed.
..
but now the test result is wasted xD
its not free -__- cost somewhere around rm500 =_="
sorry and thanks daddy~~~ TTATT/
and what craps i said about how expensive living cost in sydney were?
Japan is liek one of the toughest country to live in in terms of living cost $$$
one of the most expensive!
in tokyo summore!!!
i really talked craps aint it? xDDDDDDD
i considered a lot on Aussie.
but Japan.... aint an ant dare to walk in front of my running track =.=
wtf. more craps.
k continue~



but on. one. very. confusing. fine. day.

my dad came out from his room, brought me this stack of papers n asked me to browse through it.
he printed every pages of a university in japan's website!!!!!
its a manga/anime/seiyuu/j-pop kinda thing's university okayyyy???
and my dad search it for me TT___TT *touched
i. was. flabbergasted!!!!
i left all about aussie behind me..animation...etc at once...and get online to check this uni!


all the fuss, and for the first time in my life, such will to get something!!!!!


and today...it almost ends n__n


its such a hardwork to convince my dad.
its my FIRST time ever standing up for myself in an arguement/discussion.
usually i just give up and just go with the flow or just listen to my parents cuz i believe they know whats best for me.
so when i finally get his blessings...i now understands that he never forbid me from studying/doing what i like.
he wants to see my will getting there. how i'll fight for my right. how strong and badly i want it. and actually work for it :'D shucks dad...*imaginary gentle-shoulder-punch dad*


fine. THANKS KAK JULIE for convincing babah~ xDDD
i'll make it up to u someday.
or buy u takoyaki frm japan -__- yums.


this 27th Feb..or 28...or anytime soon after the 27th..=.=....im going to find out whether i get to go to japan or not weeee~ xD
im not being over-confident....but im just being super positive xD
ok its the same.
watever.
i know im going to get it! i worked hard for it! >A</
if i dont get it, then i'll just crack macadamia with my forehead for 5 nights in a row.
...that would be depressing.
but time will heal, i'll get over it in no time.


DEAR NIPPON CHAWN!!!!

please listen to my prayers a.k.a ranting
..=.=
im sure u want to add one more awesome girl to ur awesome country right? D':
i can stalk bishie like a ninja.
i can kiss and lick a cat more than a dog would.
i love hachiko like.....how i love the movie D<
i can shout "BoombadoomboomBoombadoomboomhe got that super bassBoombadoomboomBoombadoomboomyeah that's that super bass!!!" at the centre of tokyo and not feel embarrased of doing so.
i would be honoured if u can teach me how to do all of the above @_@"


conclusion is.
please get me to japan.
i pro pro pro prooomise i'll study hard :3


i would love to enjoy ur breathtaking scenery.
ur to-die-for four season.
ur better-shop-or-just-die harajuku street.
ur just-go-die-cuz-its-ridiculously-expensive akihabara techs xD


i just wanna get there and enjoy every single moment of it :3


oh oh one more prayers for u my nippon nyan.
pls let me bring my family too one day :3
i hope i can have them there with me to enjoy ur treasures.
in the prayers resume, i include RILL OxO
..please? OxO


haha.


cant believe you actually read it till the end with just one picture.
i know i wouldn't xD


o-ya-su-mi ♥

super drink

whoa.
i'm thirsty -_-
and too lazy to go out and buy me some awesome drink.
even too lazy to get up and get a drink from the kitchen.
in fact, there's a big bottle of plain water beside my bed,
but when i stretch my hand, i cant reach it.
*sigh*
if that's how u gonna behave, then so be it!! (says me to ze bottle) -_-


God
whai u no make my bone move to the order of me brain? orz..
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wait no.
it'll be deadly once i sleep
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*sigh*
i guess i'll just talk about my favourite drinks instead.
lol pathetic.



#1 PEACH MANGO


*drools*....my goodness. just imagining it can make me roll to paradise orz..
this is my favorite combination of fruit drink so far. and my #1 fav drink.
most awesome when milk is added. or peach mango yogurt drink.
and NOT blended. just creamy but not too thick like smoothie.
just perfect and thirst quenching.
gosh. i can jump off building naw.



#2 MELON MILK


oishiiiiii!!!!!!!~
cant describe how much i love this drinkkkk!!!~
just too awesome!
and i love 'melon' by its cute name and when combined with 'milk', they sounded cute together!!!
ok thats not the point, its just uber delicioso!!!~ nyaan



#3 MACADAMIA WONDERMILK


its actually a macadamia flavoured milk, a drink at Wondermilk Cafe (their cupcakes are nice too!)well i've only tasted this once, not even sure if i can say its my fav drink xDbut the first time gave me such
butt-to-the-sole-to-the-knee-to-the-forehead-palm
kinda feeling.
i stared to the sky with "kira-kira" eyes.
feels like im in a garden full of rainbow pooping fairies.
feels like a hot french guy giving private lecture to me in romantic broadway style.
feels like MJ comes back to life and swims in pool full of roses.
feels like the wealthy giving charity to homeless honeybadgers.
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ok dats just bullsh*t.
maybe the first two expression was right.
..and the 4th one xD
no intention on making MJ's fans go wtf (myb too much southpark -_-)
n i think honeybadgers would just eat the money instead.



#4 VITAGEN


the white one!!! xD
"LB flavoured"
...i never know what does LB stands for o_o
llama bodyparts, lame breed, lemah badan (wtf), long boobs, lotsa bribes
..heck, i tortured my mind trying to figure it out n all sorts of nonsense came out xD


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so i guess those are my top 4 fav drinks.
i was super thirsty and drools when i started typing.
now im disgusted from the last topic orz..
on the bight side, i dont have to suffer being lazy xD

tetris FTW

dear dolce,

Y U NO hachiko and wait for me??? ლ(ಠ益ಠლ)



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i had a sudden urge to play tetris when i saw my friend's facebook status on it. i tried to find it online and play.

for a while
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i've made an account and play 24/7 till my butt cramped, and sit crouching to support my tired arm.

i got to the stage where i'd scream when its critical and talk to the screen when i won as if the player can listen to me and be like...







i prepared one big bottle of water to drink after few games, just to clear my throat. and that just hit me, i haven't eaten a shit in 2 days. or carrot. yet =A=


...this got me thinking, is this how my life's going to end? sitting on a chair and play games everyday?
not growing up and study or at least thinking about my future?
if im married, my kids goin to be abandoned in the kitchen starving waiting for me while i play games?
i should take an action shouldn't i?
or i'll end up living with no money, no jobs, no family, no life, no future?
and my grave goin to be covered in leaves and left alone?
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i think too much!

mario papercraft

        dear dolce,

how's your day? ❤

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my friend Damia introduced me to this papercraft thing

and i decided to make MARIO theme first :D

tools used
- scissor
- cutting knife
- ruler
- glue (not necessary)

#1 print
- i printed them on A3 sized paper, so i'll feel more satisfy, any size is fine though
- better on harder paper to hold the shape

#2 cut cut cut
- dont forget the white lines

#3  le fold

#4 voila!
- as i said, the use of glue is not necessary, but i used it to secure the edges and to make it more solid






#5 go make the whole family so mario wont be such a loner. foreveralone.jpg

#6 Princess Peach's print is not available so i made him go gay with Luigi instead. pshh lazy cupid.

#7 ...and soon produced le wild baby mushrooms
- lesson learned, never go gay







#8 ..and hired a plant maid..since none of them can do housewife's job
- wtf







#9 have fun making scenes!

 

           LUIGI  : mario dear! our maid eat our kid!!! 
                        come help!!
           MARIO: i always knew he's the most delicious
                       among all 3 of them! 8'D *is proud
           KIDS   : ..wtf dad?

 

            LUIGI  : wtf mario?!! le sexy plant! spit him
                         out now!!
            MARIO: i always knew im more attractive  
                        than Luigi 8'D *is proud
            LUIGI  : ...proceed
          LE SEXY
             PLANT: *munch

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✩ if ur interested in making some, here's the link to download the prints:


① cubeecraft

② paper toy